You know, I can't blog with music in my ears. My thought flows get distracted. Anyways, about slightly more than 2 months has passed since the exams. I have mixed feelings. I feel so eager to begin the new academic year yet I feel so scared looking at the weightage of my remaining modules. And of course, I feel anxious for my results.  Well, just hoping for the best.

Honestly, I am disappointed that I didn't performed well for my first year and I regretted that I got off track whatever the reasons may be. The blessing about this off track is I was given the chance to amend two of my heavier or may I say heaviest modules for first year. To make it right and having the chance to strengthen this two important foundations that I've never had any learnings in secondary school or JC even. I hope it turns out very well, I really hope they do.

Well besides my academic wellness, I feel better for the holidays this time round.  I didn't waste my time waiting for things to happen and just let it be. And that is exactly when things happen and I got what I want though now it's quite in a hanging-on-a-cliff kind of situation. Lol. I feel thankful for everything and I just took everything as it is. Sometimes we need to see how bad another situation could be to be greatful and appreciative of what we have and where we are in life right now.

I have to make decisions in the coming months ahead. I hope that whatever I dread will not become a reality because if it does, the decisions I will be making will be tougher. Tougher in a way that I can't see where it is heading, what will the ending be like and what will happen when that period of time comes.

Lately too, my heart has felt so sayu, sad like I'm longing for something. Hmm. Anyway, I have to go. Goodnight.

Hams