I'm always fighting. As we all know. Or at least as I'd known all along. Fighting fighting fighting, fighting with myself. Quite a pile had happened ever since I left you exactly 2 months ago. One of it being HAPPY NEW YEAR! That's including the Lunar New Year. Lol.

Anyway, I feel really disappointed at times. Over things that doesn't concern me. And over and over again, I had to remind myself not to make their problem be my problem, not to let their attitude take a toll on myself and just stay true to what I really want. But it's hard if you're stuck in the same situation almost everyday. On days that I feel really foul, I get really foul even with my language. Today's a good day then I guess. I have to come to terms with myself. Exams are coming I have to focus. Even if it's prelims and it's optional, I'm gonna try.

Sometimes we can't see some people everyday. And that sucks. And by this, I mean both in a positive and negative way. Negative being this people is not letting you grow, not letting you become a better person in each passing day and positive being you miss this people too much but each of us have too much on our schedule to find time to meet. But then again, if someone really loves you, they won't look at their schedule when you need them right? But that's just a quote. We HAVE to look at our schedule. Haha.

To be frank, my momentum is not here today. I meant to really reflect on my anger and my disappointment and all the fights with myself. But it's always good not to say something that is not nice. So, yeah second year syllabus is ending next week. Prelim exams and after that revision classes by the local lecturers as well as the London lecturers. Come September it's final year God willing. And then it's a career! And then kahwin?! Kahwin=married. Ehem. Right that's all for today thugs.

Hams