I couldn't stand it sometimes, working in this environment. I feel kind of stressed up. I hate what i'm seeing, i hate why i can't adjust or amend it and in the end i hate the feeling that arise from all this. I feel like a failure seeing all of those who were under me work. But then, most of them are from that kind. But then again, it could be possible to change it. Only that the control from the above is too hard to overpower and overcome even if you use the deadly that's-it Killing Curse which Voldemort used on Harry's parents.

What turns out of it is i must point tell show them what there is to do. Like a moving statue. Because i'm not allowed to do it. They must do it. Order from the above. But the above always tend to bastard me without realising. They drag those whom i'm supposed to point tell and show to their meeting table in the Order of the Farking Phoenix.

It's freaking tiring ordering people and i hate to do it. Especially with the "Who are you to tell me what to do?" face expression replying me. There is no control. I failed. The above failed to totally carve me about this. He gave up on me actually. Could see it. Cause i guess i was oblivious that i was emitting an energy that goes like ~~I don't want to do this controlling dumbass~~.

And then there's other stuffs. The admins. Ugh. Not that i dislike it totally which is ridiculous for someone who wants to freaking sit down in the office and do admin. It's just that with this tits and tats popping out, it gets freaking confusing though it's rather mechanical and simple.

We just need to reduce self-centeredness too. He say more she say more. All want to win. All want it your way. Whichever way is your way. It's depressing. But the rationality all, it lies on the person whom you hate. Because he holds the rationality point and it can kill your point down.

But then again, all this can point straight back at me. Shoot me back. Kapow kapow kapow!

Why am i making a joke out of this? But seriously, i've learnt something recently this past few months.

I hate my job.

I WANT TO QUIT!

Anyhoots i just saw a video a couple of my friends posted on fb. Some insane girl singing to some crazy song. Tai ta ke tai ta ke tai ta ke yoo..
Moral of the story: Even if you made a video that you and your friends might find funny and hilarious, keep it to yourself. Post it and others will think you're sick.
What she's doing kinda remind me of myself. Hahs.

HaMie!