Sometimes in life, you are forced to do the things you don't want to do. I, for instance, hate teaching because i am a bad teacher and i'm not good at teaching but - I don't know how far a truth that is.

Well hi, it's been a long time since i blogged - properly. Today i'm going to attempt to blog properly. I mean, wth everybody's losing the essence of blogging except for some. I, am a damn good example of losing the essence. But i bet there are more out there who have lost the essence worst than me.

An nyoung ha seh yo!

I used to love blogging but i don't know why i just have no idea what to blog about this year! And then i notice, i've been blogging about my life in a "vague" manner. But even vague won't do the trick now. Everything is privatised. There's no such word as privatised. Thanks hor.

Anyways, lately. Lately i've been feeling a bit too down. Because there is no meaning to life if there's no ups and down. I was so angry about this phenomenon that i actually thought to myself that "You are meant to drown in unhappiness." Because good things doesn't last forever. Happiness only drops by for a while and they leave. Just like that. And after that the tsunami just wants to butt in. Causing none other than stress and depression. It's soooowwweeee frustrating!

I've had my bit of happiness this year after some really tough times. And you know what's the thing about happiness? Once you got it, something just had to happen to destroy it. So does my conclusion that i am meant to drown in unhappiness true? True. Bingo! Green light!
But WHY must it be like that ah?

But you know what? God doesn't create everything in this world the same. Everyone is unique. What we experience is not all the same. Maybe it's just my life that have to be like this to teach me to persevere and be patient for something good to roll in. Or even work for it. Like not waiting for things to happen thus making things happen.

But then again, sure we all have happiness. In different forms. Maybe i'm just too depressed and frustrated over bad things that i'm complaining right now. I shouldn't. Shouldn't shouldn't.

Anyway, i can't wait to go back to school. Working is good because of money. But when you have problems and life is so monotonous there and you yearn for something or what i mean is someone, you just complain. I miss working my brain to it's maximum.


But what can i do? I also don't know what to do. I just try to stop myself from hoping. Because when i hope, it will never come. It will come at the most unexpected scenario.

Bleagh.

HaMie!