I've been feeling down lately. And just so vulnerable. And sometimes, i thought, if only i were a tortoise, i would hide myself inside my shell whenever i feel like breaking down or when i feel so vulnerable. For a person who have practically no life, a lot seems to have happen in the span of just one week. From last Friday till 2 days ago. What day is it today? Saturday. Sunday i mean. So yes. Ya 1 whole week. hedrfgosengvgtsbzibdfwvunor94577456t0nc.

Last Friday was crazy seriously. And the lesson i learnt is never to make a big decision fast. A big decision is meant to be thought of especially when it involves money. And what i got into is BIG MONEY. Let's just say.... four figure? It's just that no matter how convincing it is, IF it involves money, just get out of it and discuss first and weigh your options. It's important to think through. And i regret it very much. Very very very much.

Especially regarding the one who got me involved in this. To me, it was like a trickery. Very cunning. Like damn damn cunning. I felt like i was lied at. She said it's ok if i don't join. Told me that she's just gonna show me around and i just form my opinion. It really doesn't matter if i don't join. And then what happen in the end was this person forcing me to join. Telling me the benefits of it and highlighting my fucking dreams of paying for my own bloody uni fees and wanting to support my mum. Fuck you ah. And then bringing her other friends to talk to me as if i'm some problematic kid in need of some stoopid useless counselling. I know my dreams and i know how i am going to go about it. Go ahead la go ahead and attend lessons there on how to manipulate people to join your bloody asshole company! Busok punye orang. Knn.

But i was lucky. I got my four figure back with some difficulties and having to put up with 5 excuses to give it back to me. Well you almost got to run away with it but even though i am a tortoise, i appear to be faster than the rest of the human population. You lost. I'm gonna remove you from my life. I'm not the person you know anymore. What you're seeing now is a don't-mess-with-me Hamimah. Fuck off! I don't freaking care if the whole world reads about this. It's lucky enough that i never mention the company's name. And anyway, is the company under investigation? KAPOW! DIE YOU ALL DIEE!!!!

Ehem. So Friday. Had a company dinner. My sister came along with her TPY boss and manager. I was so happy to see her. But it was the most funnest dinner we ever had this year. I wasn't my usual reserved self in this kind of situation with the bosses, manager and the other staffs. I was just myself be it at home or with close friends. Everybody was just having fun. It was so fun.

And then after the dinner, talked with sister for a while. Told her about the above problem and she told me how i shouldn't get myself involve in this. She's so protective of me i was so touched. And the part that i couldn't hold back everything was about work. Oh fuck.

Thursday also, i met a good friend. After like 7 months. I told her everything about the above one too. It's so menyakitkan hati tau.. Geram! And now i'm a bit phobic over those kind of people. It was a good catch up but there's more to catch up on. It's just a matter of time.. :)

Apart from all this, i'm also not in talking terms with my mum. All in the span of 1 week. Because of what? That stupid thing i talked about above la.. They love going back late and dragged me into it and this is what happen. Fuck them all.

But anyways, sorry for all the vulgarities. I'm so mad. My life shall go back to normal i guess. But i just hope everything could be better at every main aspects of my life at this point of time. And i hope i hope i hope that everything would be better for you and you too. Thank you for the care and concern. Both of you are the best. Though you may not know anything. Haha. Wth.

HaMie!