It is a phenomenon i never could understand. It has the ability to make any soul feel content and peaceful. And yet it could be so disappointing too.

Today, my heart lost a beat. I don't know how. Sometimes i wonder how could anyone just leave so easily without looking back again for that one last time?

Insecurities sets in. I'm always so afraid i will lose anyone i love. But it always happens. All good things comes to an end.

I do remember at one point where i thought i couldn't live without this person with me practically everyday. And then i know it will have to happen. I became so resentful of the fact that i choose to harden myself. I harden my feelings. I treat it as if nothing happen. That i don't even fcuking care whether you are around or not. Now that i remembered it and compared my feelings now and then, it's so sad.

I am always so disappointed of the fact that nothing will ever last. Especially when it concerns people i love. I hated the cycle that i had put myself through. It hurts thoroughly. But if i don't put myself in this cycle, it hurts to miss and yearn. I hate it when my heart yearns. But i hate it if i choose to forget about all the great memories and how much i love a person. I Hate It!

That's where i got stuck. What if i had to go through another one? Wth. It's gonna happen soon. I'm in denial.

I hate you love.

Why is it that you hate the people you have to love? The people who will always be in your life? Who are the main part of your life? This is my problem. I don't really hate. But it can get really frustrating at times.

I'm okay bloggy.. Just that my 1st Anniversary of Singlehood had just passed on the 7th of May.

And i feel empty

Goodnight.

Hamie