Half the time when i heard my bosses talking korean language which i don't understand one bit, i was, as i was saying, half the time wishing that they would fire me. What i mean is i wish they were talking about firing me. I don't know why i wish so but i wish so. I mean with him breathing down my neck lately, watching my every freaking moves and how i talk to the customers. And to top it off, hearing him saying to my supervisor to listen to us kiddos when we take order and he specifically said to me (because i was blatantly hearing), "Especially You." *point finger at me* Bleah. Kinda funny. Wth.

Ok fine it's fair because you're serving customer. And all this stoopid blah blah shit about F&B service. What the hell am i talking? It's important. Yeah but - ergh. Maybe i do realise that i have the can't-be-bothered attitude about the right etiquette maybe because i lack interest. Perhaps people don't really see this attitude but apparently big people like my boss does. Hhaha. But actually i don't even know. It's just me working up. Maybe.

Well welll.. look who's here?? The Queen of Insecurity and Inferiority. Lately lately lately.. Fcuk u everything's working up in me lately ok? In some ways, i kinda feel stressed in this job. But this job is my life saviour. In so many ways. And then i will feel worked up about myself. My app and blah blah blah if you know what i mean. It's so hard you know. Online shopping is killing me too. I need Ling Feng to help me with this. Hehe. Physical shopping is horrendous. Seriously. And then, it's just the inferiority.

I need a listening ear. Would you care to rake out everything that i need out, out of me? I can't say it at my own will. I need to be forced. I need to feel better. I need to know what to do. I know others had it worst than me but that doesn't mean it doesn't include me. I just need you to sit down right beside me and lend me your shoulders for me to cry on.

Bloody hell, it's a complicated (plus stubborn) system inside my head ok?

Shuttup shuttup shuttup!

Crazy. hAHA.

HaMie!