Stupid
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I feel bored and so i decided to blog. But the problem is i don't know what to blog about. Apart from the part where i tell you that i have changed skin, i got no more ideas on what topic to talk talk talk about.
So yeah. I changed skin. Ergh do you know how hard it is to find skins? I wanted something with brushes and a lot of cool and sleek designs which is associated with music and there were some which were somewhat close but the size is small la.. I mean like it occupies only like the half left of the stupid big screen. And i don't know much about html so i won't know how to adjust the size or whatever they call it. It's so irritating. But you know what's best bloggy? LEARN html and do it myself, my own skin. Something that suits me just right.
So what else do i talk about? Errmmm.... haizz.... life has just been work work and work. And i've been having too much ot too.. I'm burnt-out. I feel sleepy every single stupid day. But i try, always always always try to be more cheerful every single day and keep all those burnt-outness behind. Never to think about it. Because it can make me emo. And when i emo, i got a pantat look which will surely make people pissed with me. Oh goodness. I want to write so much more but no.
Sometimes i find it unfair too la.. But does being young gives you all the right reasons to put him or her into such a rigor? Ok maybe for a loser like me who prioritises her games on top of everything else is quite sensible, but in general? I'm disappointed.
I'm no money face though i behave like one.
2 more days to off day. Friday. I don't want to go out with anybody this time round but my bro is an exception. Hehe. I want to go somewhere far away or somewhere where i can feel far far away. And there's only one place in this country that can make me feel far away... But i don't know whether i should go cuz i'm tired.. I'm burnt-out. So much.
And i can't bear to lose you now. But if you don't go, i'll be more stuck and it will be harder to let go.
Can ex-boy please stop disturbing me? I don't want to be friends. I just want to be far away from you. I don't want to contact you. I want to isolate myself. I don't want to be reminded of anything and all those bad times and bad things i do. I regret it so much.
And i'm tired. SO TIRED!!!!!!!!!
Hamie.
You didn't want to listen. You didn't want to understand. So be it.