Ungraded for General Paper. Kind of expected. So like Chris Daughtry said, there's no surprise. I knew it the moment i left the hall after doing the paper. And so, it's a deal. No local university for me. But before i move on, let me give you a handsome breakdown of my GCE 'A' Level result.

General Paper UNGRADED (they just had to spell out the whole thing)
History D
Malay Lit C
Chemistry E
Math D

What a way to celebrate the 6th day of my birthday. And the most stoopid thing is they had to give a whole bunch of uni courses and private and overseas and local uni pamphlets and booklets all at one shot in one damn stoopid heavy bag to bring all the way back home. And i'm already so skinny and weightless and one you can say weak physically. But not really cuz i can be violent at times.

Okay and so you have seen. My result i mean. Even if i pass GP i can't get to anywhere local can i? So how do i feel? Basically, "So what?" I've had enough of what i have to feel in the morning. Been crying for half an hour even before i got the result. What a wreck i had been. But i guess that is just what i needed or else i could have not been able to control it in school. Then there were some remaining tears which i cried at home after i got back from school. And then my manager called in the middle of my sayu-ness.. Cheered me up a bit la though. Work is a fun place at some points you know.

So what am i gonna do now? Well, i don't know. I'm thinking whether i should leave school to next year and just work this year and shop to the pleasure of my heart and save some money too for school in SIM maybe and for the future desires.. God knows what i mean. My first instinct on the surface frankly, was to just not school anymore and work. Because seeing money coming in to your bank account is the most blissful feeling i can ever get in my entire life and i'm getting things i never thought i could ever get before. And i'm planning to get an iPod or a laptop. BUT deep down inside, there is that tinge of strong desire to study and get the brain working and just do my best and not let these 2 years repeat by itself again. I want to make something out of my life instead of just some 'O' level as my best qualification. I want to do it again. Maybe not the 'A' levels but perhaps some course in a private uni and get a scholarship or something like that to help in the fees. I want to be the Hamimah i once knew.

All in all, my A level result had shown some improvements from the prelims. Except for GP of course. Maintained it. Haha. Still never deprove what? HAHAHA! I was so happy when i got to know that there are 100% passes for H1 History. At last i pass History. 2 grades up for me. Malay Lit is a 1 grade up. Chem is a 2 grades up also. And Maths is a 3 grades up. Yeay.

Actually the moment i got my result slip from my teacher, i glanced through at the single grades and was seriously surprised to see that there's no S and U. But then after i signed and all those shit, i saw that the U grade is not written as 'U' but 'UNGRADED' in block letters. I was wondering what was that long thing when i glanced shortly at it. Fooled me. But like i said in the beginning, i expected it and so it's utterly no surprise. Chris Daughtry you rock! Haha.

And so, good night to you all. Think positive. Be happy. It's not the end of your life.

HaMie!