Hey bloggy....

Today, right now, i feel so..... i don't know. Empty. Sayu. And sesungguhnye amat sunyi. I feel sad and lonely all of a sudden. Something had touched my heart yesterday. And i hate it. Because it always goes wrong in the end. Always. I just - care y'know. About others.

I don't feel whole. I feel empty like i miss someone so much. Which is very true of course. But what can a normal human being like me do?

Thank goodness there's this thing called facebook and msn on this new era. Because picking up a telephone and calling up someone just seem like the hardest thing to do. Because one thing for sure, we all are afraid that we would annoy the other person in the midst of his/her busy-ness. And not only that, sometimes there's awkwardness. What a stoopid thing.

Sometimes i hate having the ability to understand one's weaknesses and being able to stand behind them at all times. Doing that makes me love them though usually it's the other way round.

And most of the time, i hate it when someone cares so much about me and is very concern about me, understands me and is willing to help me in every obstacles that i face. They make me love them even more. But what hurts the most is when they just disappear, never to appear ever again.

I may have appeared not grateful of your help.. But you don't have to go with the wind.. And leave me here all alone withering...

I feel so sad. Sad over those who had cared about me so much but then gone with the wind and sad over myself, over my vulnerable and fragile heart.

Hamie