I hate presentations. I just hate it a lot. I always get super gabra (be confused, frightened or shock; panic) and my heart will be like beating so hard. Had been doing this for years (but maybe not too much) and i'm still gabra like hell. And i think everybody can see it. From those shivering hands of mine. But it's also a part of inheritance though. Damn la. I mean like you can't read everything from the slides during the presentations. You must like elaborate and yada yada yada. And sometimes it must be a pronto thing. I can't do all that man. I'm slow at making connections. Yeah alright whatever...i tried to put on a calm face but the panic and shock and the gabra-ness is all over my face!

But i always do presentations. Small ones. In classes you don't see me in. No offence. I'm really willing to do it. Since i'm slow at contributing ideas. And that subject is my forte. So why not? But still. Gabra and not pronto enough. Loser. I thought i could build up my self-confidence over countless times of presentations. But me still stayed the same. That makes me Double the Loser.

Sometimes i wondered how i managed OP last year. Heh. But that was a group presentation. So yeah, there's support and there was also a LOT of practice and memorising. But i still think i did badly.

Presentations are just not my cup of tea.

But for the sake of my future to be a more confident person, i'm willing to do it till eternity until i get the gabra and pronto thing right.
Why Hamimah, why?


I had stomachache just now. Maybe more to cramps but not the other cramp. I just felt like my stomach is pain like the one i felt 3 years ago when i was sec 3. It felt like a hungry kind of pain but it's not since there's something fishy about it. So i decided to eat. And the pain is stil there. Same degree of pain. I tried to search for the medicine from 3 years ago hoping that it haven't expire yet. But i can't find it. So here i am, online only at 2am and the pain had lessen. Huhh. I think it's starting again. The slouching helps ease it though.

Can this stomachache come again on Tuesday? I hate Tuesdays. I hate to come to school on Tuesdays. Tuesday is such a freaking long day. From before 8am to 5.30pm. TIRING! And boring subjects too. But on second thought, which subject is not boring? None. This makes everyday in school - Boring.

What should i say about the progress of the day yesterday? Half fruiful. Did some stuffs but haven't revised yet and the main homework are still not done yet. Like the crazy 2 essay outlines, hypothesis, and grp 2. Aim for this weekend is to do all that and get my Global Economy stuffs right, Maths graphs, Chem acid-base, equilibria and Ksp. Look at the time. I'm not asleep yet. Most probably i will wake up at 3pm. And then what? Pshh... Day gone bebeh. What a life.

And i'm online now not because of crappy stuffs. I did and sent my malay lit grpwork part, looked thru the points for gp presentation on tuesday and gathered some info to elaborate, went to school portal to save tutorial and mye solutions. Seriously that's what i did. But why did it take so long? Don't tell me i'm bad at multi-tasking. I just viewed some photos and notes on facebook and "switch on" my restaurant city as well as listen to only ONE youtube video!

Bammit!


HaMie!


Aniwaes...this is the video i was listening to..
Nice one from Rihanna. Love it loads.
But i'm not listening to it because of my can't-get-over-with-my-previous-relationship.
The song is just really very nice.






History mock test on Wednesday.
GP mock test on Friday.
NO!!!!!

And it's AUGUST!!