Still can't get over you..
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So tempted to put up a photo of me and you here.
Darn.. I still am not over you i guess.
But why?
You're such a badass and i'm still hanging on to you.
Wake up bitch.
Arr..
Anyways people, let's get it over with and we'll read another one of my posts okay? Okay? Okay? Okay?
Alright.. Today went out with my secondary school mates (yay!), Felicia and Ling Feng but :( coz Kamrun can't come along. What to do anyway rite? Got exam after holiday. Stoopid JC system. But on the other hand, it's really very beneficial. HAhax!
Okay ya, so we went to Vivo to catch a movie but then 2.40pm ticket was like only left with one, so we took the 5pm show. Walked around at Vivo and then the Skypark where i had a lot of memories with him there and like wth he also got a lot of memories with his ex there. But i just like going there. We watched Ghosts of Girlfriends Past. Yeah it's a great movie and almost brought me to the brink of tears at the last part coz i was thinking about him too. I seriously dunno why i can't move on.
I mean yes, i can move like normal. o.O
I'm not making a joke but what i mean is like i can already carry on with the normal routine in my life and study and mug and i don't suddenly think of him and start emo-ing and do nothing. Now is like i can continue my life as per normal but it's like - how do i say.. It's like i keep thinking of him like almost every 1 or 2 hours. But i still do my work with him lingering in my mind.
But why?
You know, i just wish i could talk it out. Just say everything and let these clogged up feelings free. But there's a problem with me. Like the previous post where i just have so many things to say and all of it just wants to blurt out at one go, that is what is wrong with me. I have so much to say and finally all i can say is just stutter and nobody understands what i'm saying. Or i give up saying it. Or i just don't say what i really want to say.
He's the reason why i'm online like everyday. Just to get over him. This virtual world makes me forget everything. But it's getting boring. He's just across the causeway now till next week. And he'll contact me again cuz he need to talk to me. I dunno why.. A way for him to forget his ex? And don't call her? Then who am i? You see, sometimes i'm talking like i'm still his gf. Why can't i get over him?
How does my heart feel right now? Swelling with hurt.
Fortunately, there are friends by my side. Helping me and supporting me to get over him. Thanks yall.. I really appreciate it..
Sometimes i just feel like getting a new guy right now and be loved again. But no, i might end up like him treating me.
Anyways, thoughts of him aside, today was still a great day except for the fact that my stomach is damn hungry right now. Blardy person living at the 5th floor. Destroyed dinner. Dunno what they were doing and my house pipe was like leaking and the pipe happens to be like right on top of the stove. Fucking imagine that. I'm hungry....
And also, a cockroach entered my bedroom and i'm damn scared of roaches and i practically did nothing when i saw it going towards my room. My cat is another one. Chasing the cockroach. And when the cockroach is like damn in front of her, she just stared and waited for the damn roach to move. And when it moved, she lost it. And it's hiding somewhere in my room. Either in my studying place which is quite messy or my wardrobe or my bro's corner.
And talking about my brother, he left me to sleep in the room all alone for 2 nights cuz he went to a chalet. Huh! What a bro..
Anyways sorry for the vulgar language.
Gtg. Buh bye cheerioz people. I'll see you when i see you!
HaMie!